Tuesday, April 19, 2011

OKAY............so

I've been a rotten blogger, really and truly crappy.
It's not that I haven't thought about blogging, in fact I usually think about it several times a day but, obviously for over a month thinking has not meant doing!
For months now, I have felt my life becoming increasingly ...
 
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cluttered.  

This feeling has led to further feelings of lack of motivation, inertia and being overwhelmed.  I've missed blogging, but I have also purposely stayed away.

In speaking with several other blogger friends, I realize that what I'm feeling is not unique so I decided today to ....
let down my hair.

I know that I am suffering from depression, part of it caused by not fully acknowledging my Dad's passing which unfortunately happened right when Nicole was dealing with her melanoma diagnosis.  Nicole has had several scares since, but is doing fine.  
Since late last year I have gained a large amount of weight which has added to my feeling of gloom and doom.  In February when I finally decided to do something about it, I tore a ligament in my knee.  It has been a slow recovery, and exercise has been nil (no exercise, makes for little energy).

I could list a bunch of reasons for my current feelings, but the last thing I want to do is come across as Sappy Sad-sack  Sue.  Deep down, that is NOT me.  That is not my 'normal' day-to-day existence, so while I realize it will be an ...

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uphill battle....

I am starting to work on some things that I know I can control and that are positive.

So, this is my update for today.  I do love blogging and love all the friends I have made here in blogland and I vow to not be gone for over a month again.

♥